Thursday, July 05, 2007

The Grand Funk of Railroads

I'm sad. It just happens sometimes. The brain slips slowly into a deep funk, so quickly and stealthy after that, it dawns on me that I am very sad. Depressed, lethargic, irritable... the smallest thing feels like a mountain. I can't move mountains. It's as rainy as a monsoon passing through, it fits my mood. I'm wet, I'm cold, I want to curl up with my blankie and watch mindless TV, not any shows that I follow, because really I can't pay attention right now. I need something just to stare at. I'm bored, I'm restless, I don't have the motivation to do anything about it though. Conundrum. What do you do when you are sad??

Conundrum, a puzzle or a riddle designed to test for lateral thinking

Lateral thinking is a term coined by Edward de Bono, a Maltese psychologist, physician and writer. It first appeared in the title of his book The Use of Lateral Thinking, published in 1967. De Bono defines lateral thinking as methods of thinking concerned with changing concepts and perception. Lateral thinking is about reasoning that is not immediately obvious and about ideas that may not be obtainable by using only traditional step-by-step logic.

Clinical depression, or major depressive disorder, a state of intense sadness, melancholia or despair that has advanced to the point of being disruptive to an individual's social functioning and/or activities of daily living

funk (countable and uncountable; plural funks) (countable) mental depression (uncountable) A state of fear or panic, especially cowardly


kim said...

aw guuuurl.

Before kids I used to watch tv and wait for the funk to pass -- the bummer was -- I think it caused me to slip deeper than I needed to.

Doing "nothing" with kids still includes making meals and other small tasks. While maddening -- I'm grateful because I think it has kept me from getting to that state of immobilization that happened prior to kids.

I would say, give in for an entire day -- do nothing and don't guilt yourself or worry about what you "should" be doing. After that, start with baby steps and accomplish something -- no matter how small, just something goal oriented (shower, teeth even -- I don't know how bad you get).

Oh! And for fun -- I swear by this -- make an "I don't have to" list. I don't remember how I came by this, just that it was an alternative exercise for back pain (which I've never had), but I did the list for something to do and found it very empowering.

I don't have to smoke, I don't have to quit smoking, I don't have to care, I don't have like Sarah, I don't have to hate Sarah, etc.

You may be suprised by the things you didn't even know were on your mind. I think you do ten minutes, or until you can't anymore -- don't remember (and I don't have to!).

Anyhow, for me, it really helps me feel better about having a choice about my own life, instead of it being a daunting thing.

At the very least, you could kill some time with it.

Feel better soon.

meno said...

Not much makes me feel better when i am sad. I try to get outside, but i don't feel like it.

I'm sorry you are sad. There's lots going on in your life right now.

cubmommy said...

I am so sorry you are sad. I hope you feel happy soon.

When I am sad I usually leave the kids downstairs with Hubby and go take a shower. That way if I cry the kids won't hear me. I try not to let the kids pick up on my being but they are usually in tune with me. They will come up on the couch and sit next to me and hug me.

TTQ said...

Thanks for all the good feedback..Kim, I love that list to make. I woke up and started doing it.. then suddenly I was able to actually semi-function. Yay!

kim said...


Andie said...

when I'm sad, I sleep, read a book, take some pictures... do something to get my mind off whatever is making me sad.

sometimes I just cry until I can't anymore.

I hope you start feeling better!