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Monday, October 22, 2007

A-OK

At what point do you give up? After your ass has been thoroughly kicked while you made a few half-hearted punches? Giving up is hard, I'm no quitter. Or at least I wasn't always. When my ankle was broken and they told me I had to have surgery and massive amounts of titanium put in place of the bone, I said Bullshit! Not my ankle! Slap a cast on the puppy and I'll be on my way. Seriously. I'm not having surgery. I'm just not. Turns out I had it done anyways thanks to my mom who said shut up, you are too.
Or when I first knew I was sick, I wasn't really sick, it was something I ate, it was a bug going round it was anything but me being seriously sick. Give me some Gatorade and I'll be fine. Thus began the first of many trips to the ER on which I would be released in about 5 days, obviously not sick, they wouldn't let me out if I was sick right? I'm mean I'd be dead or something. Something anything but sick.
Today and this weekend I feel like shit progressively worse each day. It must be a bug, a urinary tract infection, I took my medicine at a different time than normal. Anything but a complication. 'Cause if I were REALLY sick I wouldn't be blogging. The dryer wouldn't be spinning full of clean clothes. The dishwasher wouldn't have been emptied, the trash can would still be on the curb. And for God's sake I have make-up on! So I sit here ignoring my body which is protesting my mind. I went to meet friends for coffee and stopped by mom's house, see.. not sick. It's just fatigue and a tummy ache.
So I'm going to fold clothes and wait for the Dr's office to call back with last week's lab work. Sorry if you came looking for a chuckle today, I'm not feeling very inspired.

9 comments:

Stucco said...

Maybe a different perspective would help. For example, instead of seeing yourself as being infected with a virus (or whatever), consider that you yourself are infecting the virus, and bringing it down from within.

Karinaxoxo said...

I ignore my body everyday. But I also think about my late mother everyday and the cancer that she died of - and that she ignored the same thing I did for a long time which is why she isn't here today.
I would love to tell you to not ignore your body and listen to it and never think you are 'fine' but that would make me a hypocritc =)

Corker said...

Feel better, Sugar, and keep your chin up. At least you are getting chores done so you don't feel useless. I always feel useless when I'm sick!

kim said...

which time is the right time to worry? Wish I freakin knew.

I'm sending out good lab work mojo)))))))))))))))).

Health for TTQ)))))))))))))

Cyndy said...

No need to go through all that male-type denial. You are always on the knife-edge of health, so paying attention is good. Letting doctors know is good. Letting family know is good. Fighting head on is good.

But I kinda know what you mean.

Carolynne said...

No one ever likes to be sick - there's just so much stuff to do and be and go through every single day. Who has time to be sick, right? ... Well, I'm sending good thoughts your way, my dear! And I hope you start feeling better really soon.

Sassy said...

Hope you feel better soon. I responded to your comment on my site regarding eharmony and chemistry.com. :)

Stucco said...

Not meaning to kick you while you are down, but the ads on your page are speaking now... "Congratulations- You've won an Apple iPod"...

Is it at least making you rich? I'm getting Tourette's.

soapy t said...

feel better ttq. today was not my day either.