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Sunday, February 03, 2008

Sad Day


Yesterday I got the news that a friend had died. He didn't just die, he comitted suicide. Honey saw his name sign into aol IM and sent him a message only to have the response come for Honey's Doc, who is the brother of our friend. He was going through e-mails and whatnot. I guess trying to make sense of it all. Rememeber a few weeks ago I asked if they had internet in heaven, because sometimes I was tempted to write a letter to him at his old e-mail, but was afraid that his family would be reading it. I have a hand written hidden journal for this kind of thing anyways. Therapists, sponsors and rehabs all encourage letter writing. Letters that will never be sent. a healthy outlet, a place to reflect, to get angry and to see your part if any in it.

This was a friend who always appeared to have it together, then he went through a nasty divorce, hated being away from his kids and moved back from Japan where he was a professional for a major import/export manufacturer. Honey tried like hell to help him when he started drinking again and it worked for awhile, but the more slips he made the more distant he became from us. He began moving around alot. He commited his suicide in North GA, nobody really knows why of all places he was there. The one thing I will say is he kept appearances up so well, not too many people thought he of all people would do such a thing. Honey and I being a bit closer knew he was heading for trouble, then he dissappeared. We weren't shocked to hear the news, nor were we angry. It's ineveitable for people with his type of drinking will die, end up in jail or mental institutions.

I know how he must of felt, I've been there before. The saddest part is his children, twins around 11 and an older child in their teens.




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10 comments:

meno said...

That is very sad. His poor kids. I'm sorry.

Andrea said...

I'm so sorry...

Frannie Farmer said...

My heart aches for you -- and his family -- especially the children, who will never be able to understand.

soapy t said...

i cry. that is so sad. i am so sorry. i have been there myself, in different ways, many different times.

steph said...

i'm so sorry for you and your hisband, and of course for your friend's family....

PDD said...

oh, damn. sorry to hear that. i honestly hope for his sake he knew the Lord, but that's none of my business.

it is a dark tunnel down to that spot and i hope anyone who feels like they are headed that way can grasp on to something good before they take the last step.

Swishy said...

Ohhh, that is so, so sad. I am so sorry for your loss ...

kim said...

oh.

Cyd said...

Been thinking about you all day. Sometimes you wish you could hit reverse and play the years over again and just make bad things un-happen. But this is reality, not fantasy land. No matter how much you care, or help, sometimes you are simply powerless. I like your tag "Reach out for help" -- and what pdd said about the last step. There is hope. Really.

Andie said...

I'm so sorry to hear about this. HUGS TO YOU!